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Tuesday, 16 May 2006

  • "We all go through life like bulls in a china shop. A chip here, a crack there. Doing damage to ourselves, to other people. The problem is trying to control the damage we've done, or thats been done to us. Sometimes the damage catches us by surprise. Sometimes we think we can fix the damage."

    "We're all damaged, it seems. Some of us more than others. We carry the damage with us from childhood, then as grown-ups, we give as good as we get. Ultimately, we all do damage. And then, we set about the business of fixing whatever we can."

    "Now that's frustrating, when what your brain tells you you want and what you actually want don't match up. It's exhausting. And, well, its complicated. But that's life. And life... sucks."

     

Tuesday, 28 March 2006



  • "I've heard that it’s possible to grow up, I've just never met anyone who’s actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don’t go our way. We whisper secrets with our best friend, in the dark. We look for comfort where we can find it. And we hope against all logic, against all experience, like children, we never give up hope."

    "I guess we're adults. The question is,
    when did that happen, and how do we make it stop?"


Tuesday, 14 March 2006

  • "A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beats the hell out of never trying."

Thursday, 07 July 2005

  • ok so here is my deep entry...it was evoked throught the thoughs of olivia.

    disclaimer: this is by no means a complaint.    but vanessa and vivian can vouch for how cynical i can be despite myself being in a relationship.  i wouldn't really call myself a cynic, but perhaps more of a realist. 

     

    prince charming....

                                   does he really exist?

     

    hate to break it to you ladies.  but he doesn't.  prince charming....he's just a myth...perpetuated by Disney....Disney should get sued.  All lies.  We are all brought up to think there is a prince charming out there who will sweep us off our feet.  who will romance us like no other.  who will care for us unconditionally.  who will go to the ends of the earth.  HAH...yeah ok there....earth doesn't end....it's round.  i don't know what planet you're from.  all these hopes and dreams are totally ruined once you get into a real relationship yourself. 

    when a tentative "prince charming" enters your life, all your hopes are brought up.  the set behaviors of the prince charming are immediately initiated in your brain.  and as soon as he fails, your hopes are crushed.  so in the relationship, your hopes are brought down...you begin to have no expectations.  it's kinda sad if you think about it.  but you're only helping yourself so you just don't keep getting disappointed.  however, there always comes a time when perhaps a hint of prince charming behavior comes along...but it's only a glimpse...and the cycle begins yet again...perhaps he's just saving it for the real deal with the real someone else...who knows...

    no one's perfect.  i admit it too.  i'm clingy, i'm needy, i'm whiny, i'm an emotional rollercoaster, i bitch, i complain, i'm impatient, i get disappointed a lot, i'm a princess. 

    everyone has their flaws.  but i suppose if you really and truly utterly care for that person, you learn to deal or to accept or to adapt.  take my parents for example...25 yrs of marriage and still going strong...they nitpick at each other EVERY SINGLE DAY....i have yet to have a day when my mom doesn't nag at my dad about something...and my dad doesn't listen. 

    of course, we don't really want to give up our image of our ideal prince charming.  i want to be swept off my feet.  i want someone who will make me swoon...i want someone who makes me cheese like no other.

    but until then....i shall let fate run its course.  if it's meant to be, it's meant to be.  i shall keep my prince charming dream locked in my childhood memories.  and for now, i shall slay my own dragons and fight through my own forests. 

    every once in awhile, i'll try to open my childhood memories to look for my prince charming dream...but i somehow will always be able to slap myself with reality and boom it goes back where it belongs.

    ok so looking back on this entry, i really have no idea what my point was....

    i guess it's just that in every relationship, we have all these ideals and how it's suppose to be and how the perfect relationship is....but it's never that way...never....

    ....but really and truly, if you just step back a little bit, examine the small stuff....and it just makes it worthwhile...

     

    so goodbye to prince charming.......and say hello to reality....

     

     

     

     

Wednesday, 20 April 2005

  • today was the last day of classes....too bad i din't have any classes...so i slept and ran outside even though it was blistering hot...still was nice. 

    but i had a wonderful wonderful day chillin wit makachowchow.

    started wit handin in his hw. walking to ben n jerry's for free cone day- only to find the line was fracking long. so we went to stucchi's on south u. had ice cream. got my annual blisters whenever i wear my guess flip flops. went back to the stinky mildewey viscount 18. accidently napped for two hours and missed dinner.  pancheros. bubble island. pinball pete's. home to write paper.

    @ pinball pete's.  i had the sudden urge to play that skee ball thingy...or whatever you call it. where it's like u roll the ball so it falls into a shoot thingy?  well whatever that thing is.  makachowchow got lucky on his machine and we think he beat the high score which is why he ended up getting 510 tickets ...they just kept on coming...it was great!!!  ahahah...and so with my "joint" effort. ...

    makachowchow also got his huge pixy stick. we got jipped cause we thought 75 would get us a whole box of them..but noooo...pssshhaaahh....

    but the result of the day was this....

    meet yaya and chowchow

    kissy- kissy...ooooooooohhhhhhhhh

    what do they say about those wit big feet?? 

    awww...lookie...you just got a monkey blow kiss...

    *high five* for an awesome awesome day.

    *waves* bye bye!!

    thanks to makachowchow for such a fun day.  *heart* you!!!  and go poker!!!  keep winning money for me, k??

    ok...back to pah-perrrr....

    good luck wit finalsss errrone!!!

    peas out homeslices.

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